hello.. my name is joy .. and i'm typing... i'm typing and my name is joy.. STUPID! okae.. sorry..

Hey! Oh.. i am so happy for you REN... don't let this one get away! hehe..ew.. that sounds kinda scary, huh? I like bloggin... when i'm bored..which is as this very moment! Guess.. what!! NOTHING.. hehe.. no.. i was late for school today! That was fun..i spoke to soon, huh? God surely was not on my side! hehe.. i forgot my wallet at home... so being a very safe driver *ahem* i went back home and retrieved my wallet that was in my bag from yesterday.. when we were supposedly going to ice skate! Sorry, ren! I'm so proud of you.. you can drive so well.. and so far too! oh. gosh i don't think i ever driven that far with friends! So.. we have a deal.. for everytime you drive once.. i drive twice.. cause i'm nice like that..until we have our own boyfriends.. who can take us out.. and then we don't have to deal about who's driving.. haha! well.. that's it.. i need to study for my spanish quiz today, too! And i'm starting to stress about my exit exam.. and it's not until december?!? let's hope and pray that i pass it! God wouldn't give you anything you couldn't handle.. so.. i know can i handle this.. hopefully :-/ so.. until next time.. later daze!

this is to JOY and JOyCELYN! hey you two...guess who i called? yup! d---! REAAAAALLLY! i did!! we talked for like 20 min. =) i'm not lying if you think i am. he wasn't answering his phone because he was taking the subject a...okay i'll blog longer later....okay LATER!

hi people!...well...the past couple days have been fun...but i don't have time to go into detail about what's been going on since i've last blogged...so here's a quick run through for you....on monday...i just stayed home and took care of the babes...i was also able to get a lot of my packing done...although i'm not quite finished...then on tuesday...joy, ren and i planned on going ice skating...but then decided to go visit steph at her dorm...but that didn't happen either...so they just came over to my house and we eventually got bored and went to plaza...but seriously...joy and karen are the coolest friends ever...thanks you guys so much for the care package...i loved it!...gosh...i was so surprised and touched...all i could say most of the time was "awww..."....gosh and people will think that we're lesbians cuz imma have so many pictures of you guys...haha...but really...thank again you guys...you're the best =)...oh yeah...tuesday also marked me and ryan being together for six months (thanks again joy for the shout out in your blog)...wowie how time flies when you're happy...and i'm so happy with him...it was too bad that he was in la...but it was ok...i was just glad to hear his voice when he called....see...and even if i wasn't able to spend the day with him...at least i was able to spend it with my two best friends. yeah...so that ended that day...then today...we were supposed to go ice skating again...and it almost happend...but when the three of us and rhea and renae got to utc...there was hockey practice and we couldn't skate again! sucky...but it was alright...we just walked around the mall..and rhea was our tour guide...but yeah...it was still fun. ok then...that's how my past couple days have been...i'll just end this now...bye people and good night =)

Hi =)! I'm kinda sleepy.. i'm waiting for joy to call ren to call me.. so we can go out.. since we have like 1..2...4 day's left with our bestest buddy in the whole world...i was almost late for school today.. and i was speeding like hell... but i started to think.. that there's no point in driving fast if i know that i'm gonna be late... if i'm like a minute late or 10 minutes late.. i'm still late.. but the teacher wasn't there either.. so i guess GOD was on my side. Yay.. mayan... i need some MONEY! Seriously... my dad is my bank.. if he doesn't have money then i don't have money, and that's not a good thing! so.. i applied at AE.. hopefully (fingers cross, you should cross your fingers too) that we (ren and i) get the job! Omigosh.. it would be great! I would be able to help out... like my insurance, my school supplies, my clothes, and my future apartment.. or sumthin! Ah.. oh.. GOD please let them hire us! I swear.. it's like the employee central has a picture of me and ren telling them not to hire us.. because we're not qualified! I started to apply for jobs when i was in 11th grade.. still no job.. summer... still no job.. senior year.. still no job... summer, again... still no job... then now... still NO JOB! Great huh? Somebody hire US! haha.. oh.. and i told my auntie that i really like to work, but she said, "just concentrate on your studies." Then i told her that, sometimes i feel bad asking my parents for money to go out with my friends.. and guess what... she told my mom... and my mom go all emotional.. like someone just hit her with a crying stick.. i don't know.. but she was sad. And then i'm like Mom.. don't worry bout it! Ah.. mayan.. that's the last time i tell my aunties my life.. . my so called life!! Mayan, my stupid brother needs to use the phone.. and argh.. i hate it.. it's like the phone line belongs to him.. he can use all the time he wants, and i get to use it when he's not around.. but whatever! i'm getting him annoyed.. it funny! haha.. loser.. i'm mean huh? oh.. well.. i'll be nice.. so i'll sign off.. So later daze!

HELLO WORLD! daaaang! i'm bored right now, so i decided to blog. i'm just waiting for joyC to call me so we can go ice skating! hopefully we still go, if not then i don't know what we're gonna do. *sigh* i've never ice skated before, i've roller skated and roller bladed. hah. hmm...yesterday was funny!! joyD cracks me up...we were eating tinola and rice at my house then all of a sudden she goes "you know...we used to be the size of un-cooked rice." she was already done eating....BUT i was still eating! and then i go "thanks joy! now look at me putting little babies in my mouth!" haah! it went something like that....we gave joyC's surprise dorm-warming gift (care package....whatever!) praise God our plan worked! yaaaaay! she was surprised! =) her SISTERS are sooo smart...they spelled JOYDA! haha...they're very, very CUTE!!! awwww! hopefully me and joyD are still gonna visit them even though joyC is FAR FAR away. =/ wooow! there is gonna be an AE at plaza. hope that me and joyD get hired there! our luck needs to change SOMETIME. *sigh* umm...that's all for now. BYE WORLD! (joyC when are you gonna call?!?) heh..

HAPPY SIX MONTHS JOY & RYAN!
-JOY BOY & RENDA the SURRENDA

Dear Boy,

I do not know who you are, or where or when we will meet, but I do hope it is soon.

I pray that when we meet and fall in love, you will love me, for me, and not hope for someone who is thinner or prettier. I hope you won't compare me to girls who may have brighter smiles. I hope that you will make me laugh, take care of me if I get sick, and be trustworthy.

Please know that I might be too shy to kiss you first, but please don't be afraid to kiss me, I won't slap you or push you away. I'm sure your kisses will be perfect. When we go on a date, please don't stress about where to take me; what's important is that I'll be with you.

If I cry, please know it isn't because of you, just hold me close, and I’ll heal quickly. And if it is because of you, I'll heal just the same.

And if we decide to break up, please understand that I may be bitter, but I’d like to be your friend if you'll let me. I promise to remember that you have feelings too, even though you'll never admit it, and when you are ready we'll have a friendship.

Please tell me if anything I do bothers you, or if something just doesn't sit right. I would like you to always be honest with me. If I have a bad day, I hope you will shower me with confidence and smiles.

I hope you don't think I'm asking too much of you. I hope you understand that I’m a little bit nervous and very scared. I wish I could tell you how or when we will meet, and if we will be in love forever. Every relationship is a new game of cards, and...(Sigh)...I've never been good at cards. But I will try my best to be kind and love you dearly for all that you are, without expecting too much from you...

Yours always,
Sarah

this is from the Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul III. this letter is for my future guy..wherever the hell he is. hah! his name is "Ben" and this is could also be from JOYDA to "Tito Boy" =) well, i don't really have anything to blog today. hopefully we get to go iceskating tom. and just have a fun-filled day! thanks JOY for introducing me to yea...he's niiiice! :)

Hey! I just came home from school. My English teacher wasn't feeling so well, so he let us out early! Yay, but unfortunately i'm stuck here at home cuz i need to study for my comm quiz tomorrow! Eekk... i'm behind on my reading! But.. i'll do it later on! Oh... mayan, waking up this morning was some kinda difficult, cuz... i couldn't sleep last night! Yesterday, i went to the De Vera multi-occasion party! It was anthony and mary's birthday party and uncle rey's congrat's party! So.. yah? And where were you two girls.. actually i knew where ren was, but joy??? where were you yesterday?? huh?? sorry ren. yah... okae.. i just sat in the corner.. wathched everyone talk about everyone! haha.. it was fun.. then i was on the second floor... and threw our pictures in the air for people to catch.. cause since we're so popular and all! no i'm just playin.. you know i'm just playin right! Hm.. it was a hot day. And i was lil sad to see that ryan had already left. It was awfully quiet ... no.. j/k! But parties aren't the same without ryan! =( okae.. well.. there was a lot of people.. i felt kinda clusterphobic.. cause yah.. it was hard to get around without bumping another person.. So.. i saw some people i haven't seen in a while .... so i'm always happy to see anybody. It felt uncomfy at first because it was mostly nyr, and some formality people. So.. yah. Some of them are nice... Haha.. it was fun at the end cause we were all just joking around. Mary was telling us about this girl who was running early in the morning.. and these guys tried to get her.. i guess.. and they were holding her arm.. and then the guys in the car saw a cop... and ran off... but girl's arm fell off... ( i thought it was those fake arms, but it wasn't).. her real arm fell off.. and the cop charged the with an "armed" robbery.. it was sad, but you can't help but laugh a lil bit. And then tristan told us his ghost experience.. which was pretty funny.. and we were talking about windows?? yah! Gosh..So..yah.. the thing is hopefully going to happen this FRIDAY.. whoo hooo.. i can't wait! And we get to be all pretty up and stuff! hehe...we'll i'm getting kinda sad, that Joy and Rhea are leaving pretty soon.. and it's going to be pretty sad. But.. we'll always have our blogger.. to keep us up to date with each other! hehe.. okae.. well.. i need to finish my notecards.. so until next time.. later daze! p.s. i feel the same way too REN! When are we going to find our "tito boy" and "ben." hehe ...ehe.. no i'm just playin..

hey to whoever reads this..(which i'm guessing are only joy and karen right now)...well..i was bored and just couldn't sleep..so i thought that i would write in here and talk about what's been up lately. i was actually able to go out every weekday this week except for monday (which is very rare for me)...i mean...i didn't really do anything big whenever i went out..but just the fact that i was able to get out of the house as much as i did was nice. considering the fact that my parents think that it's better for girls to not go out all the time and stay home...plus the fact that i have twin sisters who just turned 2 last june...just being able to go to someone's house is a good thing for me. let's see...on wednesday...i went with ren to get her haircut at plaza...and it turned out really cute by the way...then we went to joy's house to just hang out. see...that's all that i did on wednesday...and even though it's not much...it was still fun and i was just glad to get out of the house. i mean...don't get me wrong....i love my little sisters...but sometimes i just need a break from taking care of them..and besides...imma be leaving soon and i need to be able to hang out with my friends too...right? so yeah...then thursday...as the other joy already said...we were supposed to visit steph's dorm at state...but apparently she already had other plans to go somewhere else...so joy and ren just dropped me off at ryan's house. i feel so bad though...cuz i told my mom that i was gonna go to steph's dorm still. my parents don't know yet about me and ryan...i think my mom suspects something...but i've never told them flat out. i'll tell them eventually..but this just isn't a good time. not only because they don't want me to have a boyfriend and want me just to just focus on my studies...but also because i don't want them to think that the only reason why i want to go to ucla is because ryan is going there. you see..my dad wanted me to go to berkeley cuz it's a "better school" and because my sister is there...but that school is just not for me. and before i really wanted to go to ucsd (sorry karen i wont be with you there...but you know i still love you :) )...but after a rep from ucla came to visit my high school (uc) my senior year...i knew that i wanted it to be my school. so..i'm going to ucla because i want to go there...not because someone else forced me to...the fact that ryan will be there too is just a big bonus. but anyways...i'm getting off the subject. that thursday when joy and ren dropped me off...(thanks again by the way...you guys are the best)...i helped ryan to pack...since he already left to la this sunday...since he has rotc orientation the week before welcome week. well...i sorta helped him out...most of the time i watched some of his old film work. like...i saw a lot of videos that he did in japan...it was cool seeing his old work..and comparing it to how great his work is now. but yeah...since that day...i wont be seeing him again until next sunday when i move in. it's too bad that we wont be able to see each other for our six month anniversary this tuesday...but it's ok...it's just gives me even more reason to be excited to see him on sunday. he's so wonderful...i really am lucky. so yeah...then on friday...i guess joy already talked about that...like how we took pictures and ate at ruby's...it was cool hanging out with kathy, kim, and janet...we haven't done anything togething in like forever. then on saturday....5 months after my birthday..i finally did something 18 year oldish. my auntie and uncle have been wanting to take me and my cousin out to viejas..so we went and my parents tagged along. we went to the outlets first..and gosh it was so freakin hot. i bought a couple things...and ate at cold stone...yummy ice cream =). then when we went to the casino...all we did was play at he 5 cents slots. the only quarter slot that we played was my very first game...hah but i lost. all together...me and my cousin lost $3.50. i remember before i went there that i would have at least 5 dollar limit...but we were cheap and didn't want to lose any more...haha. and i was even surprised...cuz usually no one thinks that i look old enough to be 18...but i didn't even get carded at the door. but eventually...some cop did card me when me and my cousin were standing near the entrance...and when i showed her my id...i was like "bam" i am 18...haha. then when we went home...a whole bunch of my relatives were over...and the dads all watched the boxing match on paperview. then today...just did routine sunday stuff...went to church...exchange and the commissary..took care of the babes (the twins). and i was able to talk to ryan too...who's already in la...i always like hearing his voice...he made me smile =). there was a party a his house today...to celebrate his dad becoming chief...his brother turning 3 earlier this month (he's so adorable)...and his sister turning 19. it was supposed to be his going away party too...but too bad he had to leave early in the morning and miss it. i wanted to go...since joy was going...but this was my last full weekend home and i thought i should spend it with the family...so i did. but anywho...that was my last couple of days. hopefully i'm able to spend my last days here to the fullest and not just get stuck at home the whole time. wow...i wrote a lot in here...sorry if it's all boring and stuff...but hey..i'm bored now. but i'm also pretty tired...so imma sleep now. so yeah...good night...don't let the bed bugs bite =)

Love Song For No One
-John Mayer

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
I know you'll be so good for me, for me...

well, i just wanted to post this because i think it's a pretty cool song for the single!...like ME! heh...adios for now..