Hello. It's a saturday night, and i'm at home?!? Oh.. wells. I'm kinda tired, anyways. Yesterday, we (Marianne, Ren, Steph, and I) went to Kat's debut. It was a nice debut. It was really cute when they did the father daughter dance, ahh..! I remeber when I danced with my dad for my debut. Hehe... gosh, I remebered my lips being really chapped that night. I was asking my cousin to get me chapstick, but I guess she was busy. I remember my dad saying how happy he was and that I turned out good and stuff like that, and he told me to focus on my school. I hope I can live up to his expectations. Okae.. gettin sad. Later daze.

what are you talking about joy?! we are blogging!!! hah...well, i'm here waiting for you, joy!! :) umm...marianne's at my house and we're about to go to kat c's debut...alright laters...(sorry joy c. i got your message. what's the surprise?!!?! :) tell me NOW!!!! haha...)

Hey! Gosh, no one is blogging.. hehe! Oh.. Joy you called! Sorry, I was in the middle of showering, you know I have to be so fresh and so clea CLEAN.. hehe! Next time, right?! So, I'm about to go to Kat's debut. Just wanted to check in... to see if anyone wrote in here. Obviously not! Hm...okae. Well later daze.

Thanks for the support Ren, Joy, & Kat. That was nice of you guys to think of me, during a time of distress. haha.. i hate doing oral speeches. Now that it's done, i can breathe again! Now one more speech to go.. my persuasive speech..but that's not till later, so thank goodness. oh..Happy birthday, Kat. Can't wait till Friday, partae! haha.. just playin.. Well, i'm just thankful that my speech is over, thanks God. Um..during class i kept on talking to j.r to try to keep my mind off the whole speech thing. But it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. So.. till next time... later daze.

oh yeah...and good luck to joyd tomorrow...i haven't really been able to talk to you and i'm not positive what it is i'm wishing you luck on...but i'm guessing it's your writing test? so yeah...whatever it is...i have complete confidence in you and know that you will do very very well...

hello people =). well...i checked out this site to see what you two wrote...and i read karen’s post saying “joyc needs to blog”...so here i am. my roommate is at her computer now though...so i am typing on my non internet computer and will just copy this onto a disk...then open it up on her computer then copy and paste. ummm....it’s 10:05 p.m. right now on monday, october 7. i should be studying right now and doing homework or reading..like i should be most of the time...but i felt like a little break. let’s see...it seems like you guys’ are keeping busy down there and are having fun. school takes up a lot of time...but it’s important to not to kill yourself with work and to try and have fun. so that’s what i’m trying to do...and trying not to procrastinate. well...last friday...i went to the first general meeting for samahang. a lot of the people there seem pretty cool...but i don’t think that i want to get so involved in it....as in do all the functions and stuff that they do. but i wouldn’t mind going to some things every now and then...and getting paired up with a counselor and mentor...it should help me out my first year here. got out of there before it ended though. the people from ryan’s dorm floor went to santa monica...and since my floor doesn’t do anything really fun....i ended up going with them. we took the bus there around 8 or so...it’s maybe about 20 minutes or so from campus. we went to the promenade there...and it’s a long street that’s closed off...and there’s like street performers and stuff. there’s also a lot of places to go shopping ....but we didn’t go in any stores. there was this one perfomer that we watched...he was a dancer guy who tried to dance like michael jackson and stuff and he said that he was gonna be on that show ‘30 seconds of fame.” he got people from the crowd to help him do his act...and ryan was one of them. it seemed like he chose people that he didn’t think could dance...so that they could look funny and stuff. but when he pointed at each of the five guys that he chose to dance individually...and when it was ryan’s turn...everyone started clapping and stuff...and i think that he was surprised that he could dance. that was really cool. then we saw a couple other little shows....then we finally ate...and i was really hungry. guess where we ended up eating...hooters. haha...it was my choice...just kidding. there was like 15 or so of us who ate. the chicken wings there are good...like i’ve heard from people. so that was an experience. well...without going into little details....we left there around 11 something...then got back to the dorms around 1130. that weekend...ryan went on a camping trip with rotc...and my whole family except for my sister came to visit. that was really nice. it was nice seeing them....especially my sisters...they look like they’ve grown so much. they were talking a lot and were active...and i loved it. i took them on a small tour of the campus...not the whole thing...just the nice parts...and then we ate. they finally saw my dorm...and gave me things that i asked for...like water so i can make my ice tea...yummy....and other things like a sewing kit since i had clothes to mend....and hangers...and they also brought up my black dress...the one that i wore to asb ball senior year at morse...when i went with you karen. cuz ryan is having a rotc ball on the 25th of this month...so i needed a dress. umm...oh..and when we went to the book store...my brother bought me a ucla sweater and shirt...my firsts. that was really nice...i had been wanting some. i told my sister...and she was annoyed cuz my brother had said before that he was gonna buy her a berkeley sweater when she was a freshman...and she’s a senior now...and she still hasn’t gotten one..haha. but yeah...they stayed for a couple hours....then left. i was glad to see them...it’s been a while. oh yeah...and i gave them an envelope...i already told joyd....for you two. so now you guys can pick it up at my house and see my sisters. umm...oh sunday....i went to church in the morning at 10:30 with nelson...ryan’s roommate who he requested from eastlake...and some other samahang people. i didn’t think that ryan was gonna back till late from his camping thing...and that’s why i went to church in the morning. but he ended coming back early...and so i went to church with him again at the 7:30 mass. so yeah...that’s are the things that i can remember doing these past few days...besides going to class and studying and stuff. concerning actual school stuff though...it’s going alright....but just A LOT of reading...and studying is needed. so that sucks...but i came here for an education right? so yeah...i have to do well. remember how we’d always say that we want to go to college and do college stuff...but we just don’t want to do all the school work and stuff that came along with it...haha...i was just remembering that. but yeah...i should continue my studying now. i shall talk to you guys later...oh yeah...and i told joy that i have a phone card now....so yeah...hopefully i’ll be able to call soon. talk to you later...i hope everyone is taking care...bye =).....

umm..just want to wish joyDUHH good luck tomorrow!! i know she's gonna do grrreaaat! =)..hmm..we went to the CAB (commuter activities board) bonfire at la jolla shores on friday! wasn't that fun joyduhh and renae?! haha...it was alright, we got free food. =) after, we went to ucsd to meet rhea's friend, ben (he's pretty cute!) and then we kicked it with marianne at earl's place (a coffee house/food mart..or something...heh) and went to her dorm...school today was okay..marianne fed me...did hw...and basically kicked it with razan the whole day (that was cool...we keep each other company..what would i do without her?! we both have a FIVE hour break!!!)...met people (mostly commuters!) and ate with them...did more hw...YAAAAY! joy's coming down soon!! when? on thanksgiving, right?! hah...j/k...maybe in TWO WEEKS? yea? awesome! miss the J.R.S. very mucho!..anything else?...i guess not...so that's the scoop for today and friday..laters! oh wait!*happy early birthday to kat* >>joyC needs to blog!!<<

Hi! Hm.. what to say? I talked to Joy on Sunday, which was pretty cool. She said she might be coming down soon, so that would be awesome. =) Yesterday, I went to a baptisimal party, which was okae. Talked to one of my friends from Japan. Oh, I got a haircut. How many times do I get a haircut, seriously? It's hardly noticeable, so..but hopefully this time I'm just going to TRY to grow it out, probably to my shoulder. I'm tired of styling it in the morning. Ah..I swear I'm going to be bald before I turn 21, because of all the things I do to it. Knock on wood though! I have to go back to school at one, and I have to practice for my informative speech tomorrow. So, till next time... Later daze.

.things i'll never say. avril lavigne.

I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

Chorus

I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cuz I know you’re worth it you’re worth it yeah
If I could say what I wanted to say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanted to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you what’s on my mind?
If it ain’t coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

Chorus

What’s wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

Cuz I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
CuzI know you’re worth it you’re worth it yeah

Guess I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I wanted to say
I say I’d want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanted to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Yes I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
…these things I’ll never say