darn...i wrote a whole bunch...but it all got deleted...sucks!...so i'll just have to type it out again and probably forget to put some stuff in...but anyways. let's see...it's been forever once again since the last time that i wrote in here. the furthest back that i could really remember is from last friday. last friday i went with ryan to his rotc ball. overall...it was a lot of fun...other than the fact that i had a headache and cramps about the whole day before i got there. ryan had to get there at 3...and i didn't even get out of class till 1...so i had to eat lunch really fast then get ready. pam just did my makeup....i did my hair simply by leaving it down and side parting it and curling it...then i wore the black dress that i wore to morse's asb ball in 12th grade...and the black shoes that i bought in westwood when my sister came here to visit me. the ball was about 15 miles away from campus at the shariton hotel near the lax airport. traffic was bad though and it took us almost 2 hours to get there. traffic..along with lots of sudden stops and u-turns was not good for my headache or stomach...which only helped to make me dizzy. everything turned out ok though...and i was alright before the ball actually started. it didn't even start till around 6...but ryan had to get there early to help set up and practice for the ceremony. the reason for the ball was that it was the navy and marines' birthday...and they have this tradition where the oldest and the youngest are the first to eat the cake...and since ryan is the youngest...he was one of the first people to try the cake...which was pretty cool. so...after all the ceremonial things...then it was finally the dancing part. ryan was actually sweaty on the dance floor cuz he had to wear his uniform the whole time. the girls had to wear their uniforms too...but they were able to change for the dancing part...but the guys weren't. so like for the whole thing...he was wearing his white jacket which was pretty thick...but he looked really good though in his uniform ;). anyways...yeah...the ball was fun. it was almost like a high school dance...we even took professional pictures...which i hope turned out well. we get give aways..which were martinee glasses...and we even took home a centerpiece which was a vase full of roses and carnations..which has helped to make my dorm room look prettier. so yeah..we got back to campus from the ball at around 2 or so...and we were pretty hungry so we stopped by a dining place near the dorms and ate some food. so we didn't even end up sleeping till around 3. friendship games were that saturday...and i really wanted to go...but they were leaving that morning at 5...which would have meant that i would have had less than 2 hours of sleep...which i wouldn't be able to do...so i ended up not going. i got mad at myself though cuz i told myself that since i wasn't going...that i was gonna do a lot of studying...which i didn't do. i didn't even wake up till like 130 in the afternoon...and after that...i don't know where the time went...it just went by really fast..and before you know it...the samahang people were back from friendship games. so i regret not going..especially after hearing how fun it was. i heard that a lot of san diego people went and that there was like a little reunion. but it's ok...i could always go next year then i guess. my cousin got mad at me though cuz she went there from san diego...and she wanted me to go...but i ended up not...but it's alright...i'll see her again soon. cuz i'm gonna be coming home next weekend for the three day weekend. i could have gone home this weekend too...cuz ryan went home with ej...but i have a midterm on monday...and i know that if i went home then i wouldn't have been able to get any studying done...so i better study this weekend..or else i'm just gonna get mad at myself again. umm..i had two midterms yesterday....which sucks cuz i wasn't able to do anything on halloween..but whatever. i had a chemistry one...which wasn't that great. but a lot of people didn't think it was that great...so hopefully the curve is low. then...i had part one of my midterm for spanish...which i feel really confident about. so yeah...i have another midterm on monday for spanish....a midterm on thurs for history.and another midterm for chem week 9. arrgh...tests suck. haha but anyways...i guess you'd expect that you have to take them in college...so whatever....it's just part of the college package. umm...yesterday...kept ryan company while he had to do some watch for rotc. you know how there's always people that keep watch at the gates for the military bases...well it was like that. he had to keep watch over things in their navy room that they call the ward room. we got there at 5...and he thought that he would only have to be there for an hour...so we planned to go to the samahang meeting at 6...but it ended up that he had to be there till nine...so yeah...there were some other rotc people in the room...so we ended up just watching pulp fiction which is a pretty good movie...a little weird at times...but good overall. oh yeah...jerald came here to visit yesterday also. it was too bad...because we've been talking for a long time how we should all hang out...but it ended up that all of the other long beach people were either going to san diego or busy...and ryan went to san diego too. we were able to hang out with ryan and ej for a while before they left...then jerald and i just walked around westwood and talked...it was cool since i hadn't seen him in a really long time. he left around 130...then i went back to my dorm and just slept...i didn't wake up today until almost 11...which i guess isn't that bad. yeah...so i had brunch..and later i went to the tennis courts with some people...cuz there was this celebrity dodge ball thing going on...a fundraiser for aids. it was fun..i actually got to see famous people. let's see...i saw katie adam tim mike and some other people from real world and road rules...i saw that one guy from felicity...the one that was obsessed with girls....that guy from american pie 2...the teacher who was at bandcamp...that girl from dog eat dog..brook something...there was a girl from west wing that i didn't know...and a lot of people from survivor that i didn't know either. so yeah...that was cool. umm...and yeah...i guess that's the only interesting things that there is to say. so yeah...i'm gonna be coming home soon..yay! i miss you guys and san diego...and i really want to see my sisters...aww...i wish i could have seen them on halloween...they were dressed as winnie the pooh dressed as a honey pot and a bumble bee...awww...they're so cute. i'm gonna make them dress up again when i get home :)...haha...ok...i'll just end this now...and i'll try to write in here more frequently...ok then..bye guys and hope you're taking care =)

hello readers! yesterday, for the most part, was pretty cool! :) i ate breakfast with dean. it was cool seeing him after a while. we just talked (had a pretty good conversation :)..it was funny!) and then i showed him some places at ucsd because he doesn't really explore that FUN campus. heh. dude, i'm such a rebel. i ditched class for the first time. haha. it was just math, our teacher doesn't really teach well. soooo...might as well not go and chill with dean, right? :) umm...then i went to lab. it sucked because our test tube broke and we had to do the whole experiment over. we were half way done :( but at least we didn't have to pay for it. the experiment took forever!! we started at 1:15 and ended at 3:45. we could've ended before 3...i guess it's ok. going home in traffic wasn't that bad. i got home by 4:30. and i was only on the freeway for like 15 min, i was surprised. heh. ANYWAYS...we (joy, renae, marianne and a couple of her suitemates, and i) were supposed to watch THE RING, but it was sold out for the 7:35 show at fashion. we met marianne and her suitemates there and they just wanted to watch jackass, but joy d, renae, and i didn't..soo we just shopped...i haven't really kicked it with joy d. and renae...it was nice chillen! after, we ate at lolitas...YUMMM! and went to starbucks. that was fun!! saw people at fashion..it was nice seeing them! :)....renae has a nice, new, and cool car. a 2003 honda accord. the color's nice. joy and i got to ride in it!! YAY! :D

i found the quote on the bottom from this one person's site, whom(?) i don't know..heh. it's very, umm....deep?...harsh?...i don't know the word...cynical? hah...you tell me...

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain...." -- Rose Walker, in Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaman

just wanted to post that because i thought it was interesting!

well anyways here's a song by Bryan White....Someone Else's Star...it's a nice song...it's for the single! heh...just like "Love Song For No One," John Mayer...(i'm such a dork!)

Alone again tonight
Without someone to love
The stars are shining bright
So one more wish goes up
Oh I wish I may
And I wish with all my might
For the love I’m dreaming of
And missing in my life

You'd think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time
To people that I know
Their wishes all come true
So I’ve got to believe
There's still someone out there who
Is meant for only me

Chorus:
I guess I must be wishin
On someone else's star
It seems like someone else
Keeps gettin' what I’m wishin for
Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are
I guess I must be wishin
On someone else's star

I sit here in the dark
And stare up at the sky
But I can't give my heart
One good reason why
Everywhere I look
It's lovers that I see
Seems like everyone's in love
With everyone but me

(chorus)

Why can't I be as lucky
As those other people are
Oh I guess I must be wishin
On someone else's star

dude, i'm bored yea..but i should get started on my hw...so yea...JOY C needs to blog after her midterm on monday... :) hehe...ok, "peace out homie late"

Hey! Well, I'm here in the SWC library, waiting for Olive..we're gonna try to look for jobs on campus. So.. hopefully we'll find some. Julie was here on campus today. It was fun seeing her, We finally visited the SWC cafeteria. Then, we saw Jenilee, which was pretty fun. Well, i'm gonna end it here cause i don't think i'm allowed to use this computer for this type of thing. So till next time.. later daze!

hey hot fudge sundae chicas and the rest! happy halloween!....wow...today, we saw joy's sisters...awww..they are soooo adorable :) oh i've missed them so! hehe..thanks joy for the dulces...arite that's it for now..i gotta TRY and do hw...hah...laters! good luck joy c. :) you'll ace ur midterms (as joy d. said)...*oh i'm a yellow also...heh...

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Happy Halloween! Good luck on your two midterms, Joy. You'll ace them! Ren, how was your midterm on monday? Hopefully you did fantabulous! Have a fun halloween! I'm probably gonna help pass out candy with my mom. Such FUN! haha.. Bye. Later daze!

Hello... to my fellow hot fudge sundaers (?) Joy & Ren hehe.. and to the rest of y'all. Oh.. the wedding was so beautiful! All the weddings were beautiful! Todd, my cousin, was so relaxed and stuff. And his wife, Anne was glowing. She was so pretty. It was a really nice and simple wedding with close friends and family. Oh.. it was great seeing my cousins, too. Especially the little ones, aw they are so cute! C.J and Jonie.. they are so adorable. Jonie was showing me how to put on make-up.. hehe.. she's the future make up artist. And C.J is a trendsetter (?) she had her lil paper boy caps, and her scarf! Oh.. gosh! They are so cute.
It was so busy at the house, and now it's empty =( a lil sad cause everyone is gone. It was fun having people around the house for a day or two. Mayan, there was a lot to eat, and talk about, gosh! Well, time flies when you're having fun. And all good things must come to an end. So.. the end!
Saw Mandy Moore on TRL. I used to despise her, but now she's not all that bad. I guess, because she was the typical "blonde" girl on the showbiz scene. Soo.... yah. They also premiered the new SUM41 video. The lead singer is cute. Deryk? I don't know, but they did a mock version of "The Strokes" video.. i think? But yah it's pretty funny and the song is not that bad.
English class, so much fun! We're going into some interesting topics, like the Japan school systems vs. American school systems, UC vs. City/Jc colleges, and insurance policies.. it makes you think twice about the American government systems and stuff. I'm starting to get the point of how a really "good" essay is supposed to look like if i want to pass this freakin test! Ah.. hehe.. don't want to think about it. Eekk...Okae.. Well, I have to go study for my quiz for my favorite class in the world, SPANISH. Yuck.. it's hard, or maybe I'm just making it hard for myself, cause I'm always procastinating, YA KNOW. Okae, Later daze!